all we do is argue lately … argue … fight … bicker … sometimes I just want to take a right hook to his face he pisses me off so badly … I have pent up anger just shaking inside me … and I can’t believe it is cause we quit smoking … we never used to argue and now he seems rude and inconsiderate all the time … he makes rude comments to me and I yell back at him … it is no way to live …

I can’t even get a fucking patch to stick on me tonight … I just want to go out and buy a pack of cigs … we got along great when we were smoking … we have given up so much “vice” kinda stuff … drinking … drugs … I want my cigs back … fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck … I wish I knew a neighbor that smoked so I could just bum one … that is all I want right now … that and for some reason I really want to kick the shit out of David … I think that would feel good …